For the Release of trappedbehind.glass I had an interview with Mary Sue from the N2 about love, passion and why I make the REDACTED that I do, enjoy!

Not surprised! So what was your inspiration for making the album?

A: Sure so firstly, um I should probably have a content warning for this or-

You know from the vibes I've gotten so far it seems like your whole life is a content warning so I think they'll get it!

A: Haha yeah thanks. So when I was 18 I got drunk I tried to REDACTED my wrists after being ignored by a girl and-

So you didn't even REDACTED them? This sounds like a fake story to garner sympathy.

A: Well nothing really happened in terms of the self harm front just kinda made me weird. You know I kind of feel ashamed about not being able to do it you know? Like I wanted proof of it. Later on I would start REDACTED myself in the head but you know that really doesn't do anything either in term's of displaying self harm.

Seems like you could be lying about something like that too!

A: Yeah. I dropped out of university then went into trades, then I wanted to try being a streamer -

Oh god

A: So when I failed with streaming I went back to school and started getting addicted to REDACTED and dropped out again and then after I wasn't able to get a job as a daycare worker I went to the top of the Bisha to try to REDACTED off-

Ok lets slow down for a second, firstly you not getting a daycare job seems like a pretty straightforward decision, and you know this sounds a lot like a skill issue in the sense of your personal failures and your inability to cause self harm to yourself.

A: Hey you gotta give me a bit of credit! I went to like 5 or 6 top floors of condos to REDACTED but all the doors were locked and -

ok sure, you know it's pretty easy to get to a balcony to do it

A: Oh and your not wrong, you know that's an option but you want to make sure it works and that your not around anyone. And again I don't have the mental capacity to actually do it, like when I got to the top of the Bisha I felt that sort of emptiness, of you know, "oh man I'm actually going to do it" but they have this flimsy plastic on top so you can't climb over it, and I see you smirking thinking "another skill issue" and your not wrong. I think if I spent more time with it I would eventually get to the edge but again I still don't think I could do it even with that opportunity.

so is this leading anywhere, or more self loathing-

A: Yeah well this project and my previous work "Destruction of Self" both stem from hatred of existing, and you know I'm incredibly lucky to have the life that I have and I've had more advantages than most other people its just that I'm too afraid of facing the afterlife. I guess it's the understanding that existence is just a form of purgatory and, you know the most environmentally beneficial thing you can do is to unalive yourself when you feel like human beings like yourself are a disease on nature. And again this is just the loser perspective, I think individuals who excel in life view existence differently, like they are actively helping the world, but I feel like my disconnected presence is worthless within the world and I can't leave it, and even if we did offer a way for individuals like me a way to unalive myself peacefully like by injection I STILL feel like I wouldn't be able to do that, I'm very selfish in that regard.

Then why would you think REDACTED EDM songs be the answer to this we have therapists for a reason bro

A: I've tried like 10 therapists and I've done two 10 week programs a social anxiety one then DBT, but I did drop out of one at like week 8 of the second one maybe that was it. All these people in the "mental health system" are just animals like me who have no idea what's the right answer with what to do with life. They want to help people but have to disconnect from patents when they realize that there's not enough resources for them, the same way we've done it with the people on the streets.

Oh edgy! Ok final question, why did you feel the need to create an imaginary REDACTED to have a conversation about your trauma and display it in an interview format?

A: That one's easy, I'm a REDACTED.

You know I find it great that people like you don't breed and eventuality unalive out, I don't think you're beneficial to the human race.

A: At least I'm not a REDACTED REDACTED.

That's all the time for today thank you!

A: I paid for REDACTED REDACTED keep talking to me.

You know this unreasonable jump to a quite disturbing commentary on male violence towards woman in our world. You do realized woman are actually unalived while doing REDACTED work right? You ever imagine their day to day or are you so much in your personal bubble that you don't even think they're real, only seeing them on REDACTED sites? That's a real issue not a mid life crisis of some REDACTED dude that can't find purpose in life and gets no REDACTED so he has to hate everything around him, tell me did she fall in love with another man?

A:

Ohhhh I get it, sad flesh that can't reproduce so he's taking it out on the world, you ever thought THAT WE DON'T REDACTED CARE. WE DO NOT NEED TO CHANGE FOR A REDACTED REDACTED, you're even admitting it in this imaginary interview.

A: Hey come on now

No we're doing the full REDACTED right? Don't you worry! Tell me are the rejections from woman the true justification of your desire to bring societal change?

A:So these are different issues

I think this is exactly what this is, no woman has ever loved you so you feel the need to change the world as a form of revenge. When you go to a therapist and when it's a women you completely ignore them because in your head she's just a REDACTED. It completely explains why they don't work.

A: Alright so your not wrong on this front, but I think there's a difference in my romantic failures and overall societal issues right? You know even though a woman's never loved me that doesn't change the fact that individuals are suffering right now. And in terms of relationships there's plenty of fish in the REDACTED.

Tell me where in this conversation that you even approached the topic of societal change this is all just a sad REDACTED making fun of women, you have never and will never make a societal change.

A:You're not wrong there, I mean, I feel the world is dead. That we don't see reality anymore. And its a pretty selfish act, I think it's the worthless I feel of my life that make's me feel like I can do whatever to change it. I was walking past the Fairmont when I saw a homeless man surrounded by trash slowing unaliving himself on the side of the street. I asked to help but he said he was fine and it just felt weird to see him lying there REDACTED and everyone just walking normally. And then walking into the Fairmont and everything seeming normal. And you know I'm sure people care, or maybe not, or maybe that dude was a piece of REDACTED and deserves it. It just the disconnection that unalives me. I stole from a REDACTED and gave all the clothing to a homeless shelter (I tried climbing up a construction crane to unalive myself, REDACTED out and did this as an outburst) and I just got charged and that was the end of it. No media response, no one cared I was just supposed to live like nothing ever happened after that, like that it wasn't right. And I wasn't there with a camera if you were wondering! This is post failed streaming career.You're not wrong there, I mean, I feel the world is dead. That we don't see reality anymore. And its a pretty selfish act, I think it's the worthless I feel of my life that make's me feel like I can do whatever to change it. I was walking past the Fairmont when I saw a homeless man surrounded by trash slowing unaliving himself on the side of the street. I asked to help but he said he was fine and it just felt weird to see him lying there REDACTED and everyone just walking normally. And then walking into the Fairmont and everything seeming normal. And you know I'm sure people care, or maybe not, or maybe that dude was a piece of REDACTED and deserves it. It just the disconnection that unalives me. I stole from a REDACTED and gave all the clothing to a homeless shelter (I tried climbing up a construction crane to unalive myself, REDACTED out and did this as an outburst) and I just got charged and that was the end of it. No media response, no one cared I was just supposed to live like nothing ever happened after that, like that it wasn't right. And I wasn't there with a camera if you were wondering! This is post failed streaming career.

Please tell me what making an EDM album helps with in this regard. Fake stories do not make your arguments correct.

A:Well I mean... yeah your kind of right and you know it's not just the album it's the site and everything else around this. But you know now looking over it now, its also pretty useless.

So are we done. Hang on you only wrote two questions on this sheet how did you think this was gonna be REDACTED?

A: felt too confident I guess

You should probably end it if you hate us so much, the world will not change.

A: I don't think I can, but until this brain stops functioning the world will have to live with me, thanks again

I'm sure someone's who's actually suffering could use your REDACTED. It's only been REDACTED so I'll just charge you for that, be better REDACTED